June 2012
1 post
partys over, yo
last day of work. last trip to englewood. last time being scared all day long. tomorrow i make a long drive, and prepare to begin a new phase. i am excited, and now that the party’s over…good sad. i feel foolish to leave this love in search of more, when i have so much already, right here.
i feel more foolish not to keep trying to find a person to share it all with. so, i go ahead.
...
May 2012
10 posts
binge
so after a day of packing…i chow’d down.
it started with a cocktail, then moved to a few smokes. another cocktail, then, 2 tacos, some creamcheese and pretzels, 4’ of a veggie max sub, and 2 handfuls of m&m’s. earlier in the day , i had 2 bagels and cream cheese, and 6” of the same sandwich.
im still enjoying not drinking. alot. mostly. because now im at the...
praise
today-
i showered in warm clean water and used pepermint scented soap to wash my body.
i drove my metal car, powered by fossil fuels to work
where i hugged and taught and played with children who grow as calmly and naturally as the leaves that have appeared on the trees out front of the school.
i shade my eyes from the bright powerful sun
i walk in my bedroom, and inhale the scent of the...
praise
today-
i showered in warm clean water and used pepermint scented soap to wash my body.
i drove my metal car, powered by fossil fuels to work
where i hugged and taught and played with children who grow as calmly and naturally as the leaves that have appeared on the trees out front of the school.
i shade my eyes from the bright powerful sun
i walk in my bedroom, and inhale the scent of the...
super fine. ( old piece, finally posted)
work is dumb.
elsewhere in life… things are cool!
i added some new photos to facebook and in the process took the time to cull down my Iphoto collection. i looked through the photos from my first trip to the Bay Islands, and was both relieved and sad to realize how great I looked. How my body was healthy, and so was my smile and posture and skin. and i though about how right after...
friday evening forgiveness. (now, wednesday...
This post was originally much different. For whatever reason, I didn’t post it, and now it feels a little irrelevant. So I’ve kept the parts that still resound, and worked it into something else.
i’ve been home since about 1PM. i am”bored”. which i think means that i’m alone and not sure what i’m supposed to do. in many ways, the large amount of things...
speaking of forgiveness...
heres a pretty great little piece on forgiveness. I ran into it when i was searching for a picture to accompany the previous post.
From a series of tweets by Jetsunma Ahkon Lhamo (@jalpalyul), December 17, 2010 How does one learn to forgive and do it with grace? It isn’t for cowards. Forgiveness is hard work. Some folks are seemingly incapable, but I think the issue is they are afraid to try....
englewood is bleeding.
…from it’s arteries.
from a city that has forgotten it.
you can build a new library, a new youth center ( or a dozen of them), a new police station, a new community college and still have a massive hole.
you can contract with non-profits and host free events with free food and whatever else, and still not even come close to fixing this.
there is nothing here. nothing. there...
April 2012
5 posts
“God, make me an instrument of your peace.
Where there is hatred, let me sow...”
– St. Francis of Assisi
March 2012
5 posts
kombucha. →
my new hobby is kombucha and here’s a great tutorial!
"weed the garden"
I had a great impromptu meal with a new girlfriend last night. Amongst other things, she told me of the phrase “weeding the garden” in reference to the process of making conscious decisions about where and with whom life is best lived.
I have begun this process, and am happy to have a cute term for it. In my case, the garden is fairly weed- free. What I really need to do is be...
5 things to do when Englewood becomes too much
1) Tell the internet that today at work you overheard a coworker talking about how the principal of the school spanks students in her office bathroom
2) Tell the internet that the same principal lies about the number of diciplinary referrals her school generates per day. The recorded number is nearly zero. The actual number is significantly larger.
3) Tell the internet that the 7th grade...
February 2012
10 posts
Watch
Watch
“no matter the problem, there are only four things you can do:
1) solve the...”
– DBT training manual
“Where there is breath there is Spirit and where there is Spirit there is God....”
– dean wolbrink
“we apply value to valueless things”
– william anderson
Communities Learn the Good Life Can Be a Killer →
The sedentary comforts of suburban expansion have fostered obesity, poor health, social isolation, excessive stress and depression.
Homegirl Industries →
if ya don’t know, now ya know…
January 2012
3 posts
this work makes me have goosebumps →
also, read the article on the Jan 9 2012 New Yorker about Leonard Ursaci
“The cleansing of the earth starts with the cleansing of our minds. ”
– Rolling Thunder, founder of Meta Tantay
December 2011
3 posts
“My soul preached to me and said” do not be delighted because of praise,...”
– Kahlil Gibran, “My Soul Preached to Me”
“the basic unit of ordinary time, the second, corresponds remarkably close to the...”
– the canon, by Natalie Angier
September 2011
6 posts
unemployment, looming.
After a full 25 days of employment, it appears that I may be headed for a layoff.
I was hired to be a counselor for school - age children. I knew walking into it that elementary schools include children under 12 years old. I also knew that I woul not be spending all day with people less than 3 feet tall. Nothing personal, it’s just that they’re not my forte.
Something like 15...
sunday felt like it's supposed to.
a jog in the rain. some early morning gym class dancing. a lap through the farmers market before agreeing the bodega is really much better for staple food items. some errands. some hott now fall clothes.some emailing and a beer or 2.
no fights. no smoking. no negative energy.
with all and absolute respect to those i haven’t seen in the past month- i love you and wish you a life full of...
forgive.
i believe in forgiveness. holding on to anger is only good for harming self. once it has been made clear what, if any, amends are going to be made, it is best to forgive. the person who hurt you does not know that you are still angry, and therefore your anger does little in the way of punishing them. the anger you hold inside, or vocalize, only serves to change your perceptions and attitude...
morning.
ive been sleeping irratically. i woke at 430 this am. I watched “The Help” and then ate an egg. My stomach is butterflies.
I realized that this is the time of day I had been getting up at. This is the time when I stumbled into the bathroom and kitchen…and to the bus stop. Not any more. The morning is now dark at this hour. I remember that it was this time last year that I...
now on to the real deal.
Work thus far has mostly involved me meeting people and then, watching them. It’s how I learn. I have tried to show my face, and make sure people are learning about me from watching me, as well.
Friday morning, at about 9 AM, an hour after school began, I walked towards the office to speak with an administrator. On the way, I caught sight of a small boy- maybe 9 years old- being berated...
i am back.
with the past 12 months behind me, i can get back to my self.
let’s start with a quick debriefing.
a year or so ago, after a year marred with grief and loss and change, I accepted a job in corporate america. i was glad for the job- i was able to take a huge pay increase and save every single dime of it; i was able to completely throw myself into something mind numbing so i could avoid...
November 2010
8 posts
A is for Anatomy: Getting bashed in the local... →
aforanatomy:
Navigating the insurance maze
The next time you have the misfortune of requiring a therapy service, physical therapy for example, be sure to take a timer with you, request that the therapist spell out what code he is billing under and hold him to at least 14 minutes of service per code.
I…
sit →
Pieter Hugo →
Paul Theck, as documented by BWS →
“i felt connected to the delicacy and irrepressible majesty of life”
– Ntozake Shange in an interview with Hilton Als. “Color Vision”, New Yorker Nov 08 2010 p.44
